12-08-2025, 07:41 PM
He finally spoke up, but his voice was relatively quiet and personal in tone, "Well, I can certainly relate to worrying about how you'll be remembered. I'm considered to be a bit...um...controversial in certain scientific circles." He glanced at Cindy, where she sat with Jonas and then looked back to Beno. "I don't know what bad things you're worried about, but I can say that I have my own share of things I would rather not be remembered for. I like to think that my efforts and intentions to help people would be more known than the lives lost because of my work." Beno thought to herself about how this was a real problem in Science, where a major project intended to improve the standards of life but ends up being weaponized.
He started to say something, hesitated, then tried again. His fumbling and loss for words was very unlike his normal professional and calculated mannerisms. "Beno, I don't know a great deal about the subtle differences of Trill and the joining process, but I've read a little about it. It sounds complicated, from a personal perspective. On the other hand, we're all complicated in our own ways. As for possible regrets, I remember something I was once told. There are two major rules to remember about people. The first is that everyone is broken. Even those who look like they are perfect, we're all broken in some way. The second rule is that, because of the first, everyone has baggage. Some of us have more than others, but it's a simple thing to keep in mind. The thing is that once you accept these rules, life becomes a great deal easier to get through. You tend to allow others a bit of grace and sometimes you even manage to give yourself some as well." Again it was a reminder of something she had heard in the past, in this case it was a distinction without a difference.
He paused and his smile widened, "I'm guilty of having played at being a god, and for my sins I succeeded. What would you tell me of your bad deeds? Mind you, I'm not your confessor, just a fellow sinner hoping for redemption in the end."
Beno had a brief smile as she heard about playing God, it was also a common failing with Science. "I am glad you are not my confessor, I would sooner talk to someone who has been there done that." It was a small joke of hers, but true. "I had an anger problem that was more than just slight, when things were good so was I but when they weren't." She stopped right there.
"If anyone stood in my way I would tear them down until I got what I wanted, I never thought of the consequences nor took accountability. When I did succeed in tearing someone down it felt good, but it was extremely short lived. Granted I never did anything that would physically harm another, but this is equally as bad." She had a slight sigh before continuing.
"Ever since I put on the Uniform I have been doing the exact opposite, building people up is a lot harder than tearing them down. I think this mission really puts this into focus for me because of the breakdown in communications, just like down there at no time was I willing to listen to anyone's point of view and just wanted people to listen to me." Beno had that look that suggested that there was a connection made. "My late husband would say the problem with being in such a defensive position is no one is willing to listen, the only way to get people to listen is to first do it yourself." Beno knew that most that have been part of these tantrums have long since put it behind them, or so she did hope.
"I know that there is no way to make amends with most people, they are in loving memory of loved ones. This is one burden that is long overdue to let go of it, I just don't know how." It was rare for Beno to admit that she didn't know something, in this case it was because in no lifetime did Velaul truly go through this.
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He started to say something, hesitated, then tried again. His fumbling and loss for words was very unlike his normal professional and calculated mannerisms. "Beno, I don't know a great deal about the subtle differences of Trill and the joining process, but I've read a little about it. It sounds complicated, from a personal perspective. On the other hand, we're all complicated in our own ways. As for possible regrets, I remember something I was once told. There are two major rules to remember about people. The first is that everyone is broken. Even those who look like they are perfect, we're all broken in some way. The second rule is that, because of the first, everyone has baggage. Some of us have more than others, but it's a simple thing to keep in mind. The thing is that once you accept these rules, life becomes a great deal easier to get through. You tend to allow others a bit of grace and sometimes you even manage to give yourself some as well." Again it was a reminder of something she had heard in the past, in this case it was a distinction without a difference.
He paused and his smile widened, "I'm guilty of having played at being a god, and for my sins I succeeded. What would you tell me of your bad deeds? Mind you, I'm not your confessor, just a fellow sinner hoping for redemption in the end."
Beno had a brief smile as she heard about playing God, it was also a common failing with Science. "I am glad you are not my confessor, I would sooner talk to someone who has been there done that." It was a small joke of hers, but true. "I had an anger problem that was more than just slight, when things were good so was I but when they weren't." She stopped right there.
"If anyone stood in my way I would tear them down until I got what I wanted, I never thought of the consequences nor took accountability. When I did succeed in tearing someone down it felt good, but it was extremely short lived. Granted I never did anything that would physically harm another, but this is equally as bad." She had a slight sigh before continuing.
"Ever since I put on the Uniform I have been doing the exact opposite, building people up is a lot harder than tearing them down. I think this mission really puts this into focus for me because of the breakdown in communications, just like down there at no time was I willing to listen to anyone's point of view and just wanted people to listen to me." Beno had that look that suggested that there was a connection made. "My late husband would say the problem with being in such a defensive position is no one is willing to listen, the only way to get people to listen is to first do it yourself." Beno knew that most that have been part of these tantrums have long since put it behind them, or so she did hope.
"I know that there is no way to make amends with most people, they are in loving memory of loved ones. This is one burden that is long overdue to let go of it, I just don't know how." It was rare for Beno to admit that she didn't know something, in this case it was because in no lifetime did Velaul truly go through this.
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